If there is one thing about being a Mother that I know for sure it is this: Just when you think you have it all worked out you realise that in fact you have no idea what you are doing.

Being a Mum is hard work. It is scary, it is exhausting and it is downright confusing at times but it is also the most rewarding thing you will ever do in your life. The feeling of absolute unconditional love that you feel when you look into your childs eyes is like nothing you will ever feel. It took me a long time and a lot of mistakes to realise this but if there is one thing in my life that I want to be remembered for it is for being a great mother to my kids. Nothing is more important than these little people that rely on me entirely for everything.

I'm doing the 'new mum' thing for the third time and I have learned so much more this time around than I thought possible. I'm now able to be the sort of mother I want to be without worrying about what others say. The truth is that no matter what sort of mother you are there is always... and I mean always... going to be someone that disagrees with you. I cuddle my baby when he cries. I 'babywear' and I love it. I responsibly cosleep with him in my bed. I stare at him when he sleeps and I touch his foot just to make sure he is still breathing. I have him vaccinated. I feed him whenever he wants. No scheduled feeds here. I wake him to play with me. And you know what? I'm okay with that. Some of the choices I have made for my baby are controversial but so what? My baby is happy. I am happy and we all know when Mum is happy the rest of the house is happy.

There are so many things flying around my head as I type this that I want to talk about here. My love for my kids. What they don't tell you about parenthood. ADHD and how it affects my eldest daughter. The sudden impact of Middle Child Syndrome on my other daughter. Websites I am devoted to. Flylady. Babies. My family. I could go on and on. The hardest thing about this blog is not going to be not having anything to write about - more like not knowing what to write about!

I hope you will join me on my journey with my first Mummy Blog and feel free to comment so I know someone - anyone - is reading :)